Hey Ya'll

22 months without an update... Yikes.


If any one reading this was following my blog before September 12th, 2016, I'm sure by now you're wondering why I took a nearly 2 year hiatus without warning. I'll be honest, I'm not totally sure if I have an answer for you.

Life has it's ups and downs, mountains and canyons, strikes and gutters, all the what-have-you's. Since I abandoned took a break from the blog I've been hired and fired from jobs across 3 cities, made new friends, lost old ones, moved out of my parents' house, bought a car, built a computer, built a gun, started a band, wrote and recorded songs, quit smoking, joined a D&D group, and in all that time I still haven't found a significant other... Oh well. Currently, I'm living with my best friend, working 70+ hours per week at 2 jobs so I can make my bills and do what I want with my life.

I kept making captions even after my last post. I just decided never to post them because I thought I had given up on this blog for good.

In truth, I have intermittent gender dysphoria. Some days I don't even think about it, and I'm perfectly content to be the 6'5" hairy guy the world sees me as. Sometimes I'll even go for weeks and not have to worry about it. Other days, I'm so focused on how badly I want to change this situation that I can't think about anything else, I can't get out of second gear, I can't focus on the job I'm supposed to be doing at the time. Lately, the "intermittent" part of that is becoming less and less so. More often than not now I'm having a mental crisis about how I wish things were different, about how I know in my heart and soul that I would feel a million times better if I were a cute 5'4" woman - and knowing that it's never to be.

When I started this blog, I figured it would be a good way to sate the desires of this little fetish I had about becoming a woman. Only now, nearly six years later, do I realize I wasn't catering to a fetish - I was crying for help.

As of now, I don't have the ability to see a therapist. I don't know if HRT would be the right course of action, or if a little cross dressing and role play is all I need for me to feel normal in my own skin.

The other thing about it is, if I were to go the whole 9 and take the plunge into womanhood, I don't want things to change... I still want to build computers, shoot guns, play D&D, play in the band with the guys... I still want to be one of the guys, I just want to be a girl...

Anyway, the reason I'm coming back now, is because after a while I realized that captioning is actually kind of therapeutic for me. Sure, it won't alleviate all of the stresses that I'm going through, but it will provide me with a decent enough outlet that my days may become a little more bearable. As an added bonus, you all get fresh jerk off material ;)

For now I'm not taking requests, and I do apologize if in the last two years you've made a request via email - I will eventually get around to them, I promise, but for the time being I have to focus on helping me get better before I do anything else.

I have a little stockpile of captions that I made during the hiatus, those will eventually make their way onto the blog in time, likely to be mixed in with some fresh ones I'll be putting together shortly. I'll occasionally update the personal blog as well, but not nearly as often as this blog because let's face it, making up stories is easier than telling a real one.

I do hope my darlings stayed debaucherous while I was away! ;)

~Addie